oh-ryan!

2009-06-21T21:58:00.002+08:00

Tuesday 3:00 a.m.,
Once again I'm wide awake.
Waiting for time to mend this part of me that keeps on breaking.

Newspapers I threw away, washed the dishes in the sink.
3 a.m. on Tuesday, I have too much time to think.

And I could call up to heaven, or I could crawl down to hell,
Nothing will change the way things are and nothing ever will.

He thinks I can't hear him cry and I pretend that I don't know, or
about all the 3 a.m.'s he spends wrestling with your ghost.

And I hear him call out to heaven, I watch him crawl down through hell.
He's not getting over you, I know he never will.

Nothing he says will bring you back,
He's got nothing left to show
But a pocket watch and memories of a kiss out in the snow.

And I hear him call out to heaven, I watch him crawl down through hell.
He's not getting over you, I know he never will.

And I hear him call out to heaven, I watch him crawl down through hell.
He's not getting over you, I know he never will.

2009-06-16T17:22:00.003+08:00

HEY GUYS!! I'VE MOVED! to CYWORLLDDDD :D:D:D

http://www.cyworld.com/ryanhjj

잘가!

2009-02-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY HEY URGENT POST

Apparently recently there's been rumours about me being gay circulating around school cause and i quote "my mother read my diary and found out" and i was "complaining about it".

OMG DAMN FUNNAYE. THe funny thing is is that i dont even have a diary. F'kin hilarious i tell you. And the thing is, why would people be overhearing me complain about it, when i dont go around BROADCASTING my troubles. Wow, the sort of thing CJC people resort to. oh well. it's kind of expected lah.

PERHAPS it's because i do Street jazz? Well to those who think that street jazz is gay, too bad you can't dance it. Losers. Go to google, and search "vogueing" watch videos on that and then come back to me and tell me if street jazz is gay compared to that. If i'm good at it, then shouldnt i dance it? You dont see any problems when people are good at other genres do you? RETARDS.

ANYWAY in the first place it's retarded to label dancers in terms of genres. Dance is dance. not hip hop street jazz jazz bboying popping locking tektonics blah blah blah. Dance is dance. Thats it.

Okay whatever. :) just needed to rant.

P.S when and if i find out who's the person spreading the rumours, i will hunt you down and kickbox your ass to hell. ( yes i kickbox too, is that gay?) :)

Noobs.

2009-01-11T19:16:00.003+08:00

HEY ALL! :D

CJ OPEN HOUSE WAS FANTABULOUS.

seriously.

haha. PAC performance. was. the shits though. Stupid Sound guy screwed up the music. so soft. Could barely hear the song. :( ass.

DDR was the sex. REAL CROWD attracter i tell you. CJC dance's booth had a perpetual crowd around it. bwahaha. CJC dance totally ruled this open house.

Quadrangle performance was much better. But i think i, as a dancer, didn't express myself well enough. Mental note, must be more exaggerated and bigger actions. BIG BIG BIG (as Dom said before).

We did Prom, and then NOBODY and then Stand Up( me and qing) SORRY LALA, didn't tell you about Nobody, because like we needed a song to link it together and it was actually alright right? :) dont angry lah.

Credits to Wondergirls' choreographer, CK(for stnad up) and myself. bwahaha. EGO INFLATES.

alright, so this open house is over, and CHINESE NEW YEAR IS NEXT XDXD

i have mixed the song. it is dope. we shall rule once more :D

haha! CANT WAIT. school is scrwed. havent touched books for 2 months. DIE DIE DIE. oh well :D

2009-01-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

Great performance guys :)) even though it was just a minute , we rocked for that one minute! Here's to more opportunities to come !

2009-01-08T01:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

i know its beeen a helluva long time since i've posted anything on this blog. haha

How has the holidays been for y'all?

Mine. Was. OKAY. i guess. intended for there to have more dancing. but. alast. time constrain.

sooo, i went to HK, then there was cousins Solemnization, xmas partys, new year partys, cousins 21st birthday, prom performance, freestyle sessions. hahaaa

yeah. school is starting real soon. and i haven't touched my books at all. i mean seriously. NoT FOR 2 MONTHS! how how how? Quit JC and go poly right. sigh. i wonder when the poly intake is. haha. go Ngee Ann and Join NRA! Right, zach? lol. We'll see we'll see, i guess it depends on like my common test and like midyear. see whether good enough. zz. Otherwise come out with some shitass A level cert.

But seriously, how relevant is an A level cert in todays society eh? not really relevant right?

its like. Parents build up an A level cert to be such a huge thing in a childs life, i think is becuase in the olden days, for them, attaining that cert is damn good already. well times are different. ever heard of Entrepreneurship? yeah. Probably in the old days, people would call you stupid, but maybe setting a shop for certain stuff is a good idea.

im looking forward to getting my drivers license! ( even though ill have no car to drive around -.-) but yeah! cant wait to turn 18. heh.

im NOT looking forward to As

im quite looking forward to SYF. hopefully guys get to do more than just lifting.

im looking forward to more dance in my life. Im not just some half past six who just decided , "oh dance in jc! WHY NOT. lets see if i can get in" i mean. there are people out there who are ten times better and really have an undyinng passion! and i want to be one of those people

i wnt to excel in locking, streetjazz and get my reggae right.

i want to be able to split ( this can soon be achieved)

i want to pass As without studying and then worry later.

im NOT looking forward to NS, unless i get into MDC, at which point ill get to dance everyday XD

im aching now, full day of dance luh, better sleep now! night peeps!

2008-12-17T23:11:00.006+08:00

omg omg omg. NIA is damn funny. where did it come from???? i was just chatting with linh,

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:55:52 PM)

you went for so long

[][][][][][] says: (10:56:03 PM)

5 days nia!

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:11 PM)

nia?

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:12 PM)

HAHA

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:13 PM)

nia

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:15 PM)

nianianianinaiania

[][][][][][] says: (10:56:38 PM)

you crazy

[][][][][][] says: (10:56:43 PM)

what's wrong with nia

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:45 PM)

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:47 PM)

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:48 PM)

NIA

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:50 PM)

LOL.

Dance; jazzingstreets@blogspot 미쳐냐? says: (10:56:56 PM)

its FUNNAYE

[][][][][][] says: (10:57:09 PM)

nia nia nia nia nia

omgomg. my dogs pen is damn damn smelly *coughs *

okok im off!

hongkong and addiction.

2008-12-14T11:41:00.007+08:00

Hello there all,
Jus got back from Hong Kong about 2 days ago, and am currently bored.
HongKong was okay. I mean disneyland was pretty fun. What with the rides and fireworks. Macau was boring as HELL. All there was there were boutiques with things too expensive to buy, or like casino which people under the age of 18 cannot enter. There WAS a gondola ride though, but it seemed like everyone would stare at you if you rode it. It was indoors. Think swimming pool but much narrower. Now picture a random person serenading you in an echoey mock up of Venice. Hilariously gimmicky if you ask me.

Dont misunderstand, this is just a pic i found off the net. Heh.

From Macau took ferry back to HK, and the shopping there was fantastic. Why you ask? Because it was dirt CHEAP.
I bought so many things. HAHA. CONfessions of a shopaholic. I also discovered my passion for bargaining. Especially at them markets. Damn fun. Especially when the vendor is desperate, and since i know bits of Cantonese, i found myself at an advantage.hah. Trip was full of drama though, all our parents got drunk and HIGH. oh the irony. haha. nonetheless it was a fun trip with my childhood friends Nicole and Chloe :)

okay now for the second part of this two part post.

Addictions.

"In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away." - quote from Grey's Anatomy, American TV Show

i think this makes alot of sense. Addiction could be pertaining to many things. Liquor, cigarettes, porn, fast food, caffeine, work, shopping. Basically every vice has the potential to become an addiction. But i guess what's harder to do than acknowledging the addiction is wanting to get rid of it. I mean, There's no way one can get rid of something if they still want to hold onto it, if it's something they dearly want. The irony of it all is that something that feels so right, is slowly but surely eating away at us, be it mentally, emotionally or physically.

In the end, what are we? Merely vessels of filth consumed by vice. Mindless drones. In this world of immediate gratification, we can hardly fight to hold on. Here are some lyrics:

Emmy Rossum- Slow me Down
Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish i could stop it
Try to appear like i've got it together
I'm falling apart.

This is a great song, it really summarises my thoughts as of now.

I guess the best way to beat an addiction is to pack our lives with more things and fill up our busy schedules. oh the irony. :/

Xoxo

2008-10-28T19:42:00.006+08:00

HELLO readers. it's been a long time! :)
but... IM BACK.

I really question the existence of this blog. What is its purpose?
Merely to spread the word about what happened throughout my day? (BORING)
To Ponder certain issues? ( BORING)
What other uses are there?
Everything's so . Boring.
Unless... GOSSIP?

I could see it now,

GOSSIP BOYS
Your one and only source into the not-so-scandalous lives of Singapore's not-so-elite.

JJ would totally love that. Actually so would I.
Beware Blogosphere, THE BOYS ARE BACK.

ONE INTERESTING PIECE OF GOSSIP
Listen up readers, apparently theres a certain someone who enjoys a certain dirty act by a certain kind of person. haha.
Confirmed to be true, thats pretty nasty. Seriously. Look out for him, apparently he enjoys being the first to buy food from a certain noodle shop and then rushes to the nearest table. SERIOUSLY. :)